3 Days into the new year and I all ready hate myself. Then again, I never stopped.

What have I been working on:

I've been thinking, mostly reflecting on my actions.Adding more to my journal the real life one at least.

Never been one for typing down my own thoughts in a public place, it feels vague. Schizophrenia is a dick can't focus on meaning and purpose.

Brainstorming. Doodling. Pissing and moaning on paper.

I found a scanner that can help with the whole digital portion of the digital art. If only I could just buy it. The penny jar is....sitting on the table with a coins in it.

I think what is holding me back is that I am not letting myself get feedback. Like a part of me is scared shitless of some kinda shame I harbor. Plus, being told "you suck" hurts.

What are my goals:

Get better tools.

A tablet that works all the time not just whenever it feels like it. That thing pisses my off so much I lose my shit and my train of thoughts to go with it.

 

Had you ever have a pen run out of ink?
Had you ever have a pen run out of ink; just as you were getting ready to draw something you've been focusing on?
Have you ever toss out an empty pen? Picked up a new one only to find out that it too was empty.
I stopped using it.

A scanner so I can take images off my books.

Find work? Maybe. Not anytime soon I still need to get better as an artist before I try to sell.

 

What is my plan:

Try not to die. Draw.

You can see what I mean if I ever get those tools I need.